back to the grindstone

you know how i hate studying?
yeah i hate studying.
it’s no surprise
but studying isn’t half as bad when you got the right mates to do it with.
*not like we’d be studying half the time anyways, but you get wat i mean, yes?*
but studying in a place that’s pretty much void of people that you like,
now that’s what i call a shithole.

i’m sure you know college just started for me.
and so far, it’s only been my first day.
and yet.
and yet.
i am failing to network
yes. that’s right.
maybe cause i can’t be bothered anymore.
it just struck me this morning when i was stuck in some lousy traffic
maybe i have met all the people i’ve wanted to meet.
and it’s probably enough to last me a lifetime.
no kidding.
i don’t want to spend the rest of my time here being fake.
like i really want to know anybody anyways?
i think not.
and before u start bombarding me with things like
“aiyah don’t lie la, how can you be so anti-social?”
well i’ll tell you now.
it’s a choice.
it’s an evident path i am quite willing to take.

in fact i am quite fucking pissed with everyone right now
the exception being my mom, dad, en and j-man.
everyone else can just fuck themselves.

i won’t ask to be forgiven for being crude.
or rude. or watever.
it’s how things are right now. this very moment.
that i feel THIS fucked up to tell everyone else to go and just die.

oh wait i haven’t told you about orientation yet.
it was one word : bollocks.
i swear, if there’s any other way to waste time, it’s orientations.
and if there’s anything else, it’s the people in the orientations.
myself included, because why?
i went as well +_+

but i had a blast with yaya, aisha, koo and paul yesterday
just downing glass after glass after glass.
i went home feeling good about myself and as the night wore out
i just felt that little bit more shitty about the first day of class.

damn we’ll just see what happens tmw, yes?

p/s: at the rate i’m going, the bottle might just be my next best friend.