she's on the right track, sopping wet!
31.12.10
27.12.10
Like the man cycling around my neighbourhood, picking up discarded cardboard boxes for sale/recycle. we share the same kind of demons.
I'm no different from you.
We share the same sorrow, the same loss.
it's always just a matter of time.
resist to be a part of consumerism
you can't wash out the stains left behind.
I'm no different from you.
We share the same sorrow, the same loss.
it's always just a matter of time.
resist to be a part of consumerism
you can't wash out the stains left behind.
26.12.10
different weekend, different person.
i've got my torn jeans in the backseat, a sweater in my trunk.
i'm ever ready to jump, maybe even drown in you.
but where do we go?
it isn't permanent, ambiguous statements of many nights.
today on a red couch, tomorrow with white sheets, the day before sipping green tea.
i ask why, but truth is, i don't want to know.
tucked away, folded, neat and tidy, are people I am most likely to never have in my life. made out of paper, i can set you alight. and when you do burn, you are over in a matter of seconds. that's how i feel about you, you who concern yourself with money.
i've got my torn jeans in the backseat, a sweater in my trunk.
i'm ever ready to jump, maybe even drown in you.
but where do we go?
it isn't permanent, ambiguous statements of many nights.
today on a red couch, tomorrow with white sheets, the day before sipping green tea.
i ask why, but truth is, i don't want to know.
tucked away, folded, neat and tidy, are people I am most likely to never have in my life. made out of paper, i can set you alight. and when you do burn, you are over in a matter of seconds. that's how i feel about you, you who concern yourself with money.
22.12.10
We are the collective product in progress.
Sometimes a by-product of who we meet, what we see.
in the closing days of 2010, there's been so much said and done.
every year moves faster than the previous one.
perhaps at the beginning of my gap year i didn't exactly know what i wanted to do, the dream of studying abroad this year, did not materialize. i kept putting it off, i wanted so badly to make us that in the end i saw where it was all going. just nowhere.
i took jobs, signed contracts, put up hours for things i didn't want, people i didn't like. there was a lesson to be learned in every place. it was making me unhappy along with all these emotions that weren't even in check.
it was just a big fat mess, the more i tried to clear it up, the messier it became.
still, i think in the months past, a lot of me has become clearer. i will return to university in February. I am going to Laos for a week before that. and in the most immediate future i am going to settle university issues, take out a loan, finish this internship, hopefully score another internship, drink more wine, eat and be merry, have Christmas and New Year pass by without any more emotional drama. i sometimes get the feeling that my life seems to be like a scandalous television mini-series, the one where the girl is always lost. but hey what do i know? i don't even watch TV. yes, that's right, when people ask me where i get my American accent from, i say it's from American TV. darlings, i lied okay? i don't have an accent, i just speak good English. anyway i'm deviating. point is, there's a lot to be done in the last week of this decade.
Sometimes a by-product of who we meet, what we see.
in the closing days of 2010, there's been so much said and done.
every year moves faster than the previous one.
perhaps at the beginning of my gap year i didn't exactly know what i wanted to do, the dream of studying abroad this year, did not materialize. i kept putting it off, i wanted so badly to make us that in the end i saw where it was all going. just nowhere.
i took jobs, signed contracts, put up hours for things i didn't want, people i didn't like. there was a lesson to be learned in every place. it was making me unhappy along with all these emotions that weren't even in check.
it was just a big fat mess, the more i tried to clear it up, the messier it became.
still, i think in the months past, a lot of me has become clearer. i will return to university in February. I am going to Laos for a week before that. and in the most immediate future i am going to settle university issues, take out a loan, finish this internship, hopefully score another internship, drink more wine, eat and be merry, have Christmas and New Year pass by without any more emotional drama. i sometimes get the feeling that my life seems to be like a scandalous television mini-series, the one where the girl is always lost. but hey what do i know? i don't even watch TV. yes, that's right, when people ask me where i get my American accent from, i say it's from American TV. darlings, i lied okay? i don't have an accent, i just speak good English. anyway i'm deviating. point is, there's a lot to be done in the last week of this decade.
7.12.10
Sleep mode
one week to go, the distance is good. nothing i can do to change it.
to be honest, i suppose i am doing it all deliberately.
let's not complicate it all further.
my brother is now married, an addition to the family.
i still don't quite know how to react, the weekend was a whirlwind of parties, drinking, smiles and many people.
i feel even more insignificant in his life.
monash is taking awhile to respond, that makes me feel terribly anxious.
if they don't take me in, i'm not sure where i'd go to finish this up.
the end of the year is about 3 weeks away, i think we've all been overwhelmed by the wedding to be excited about Christmas and New Year's. doesn't look like anything's about to happen.
i've made plans for 3 getaways. now to make money to fund those trips, sigh.
Lykke Li said it, we've got to get some.
to be honest, i suppose i am doing it all deliberately.
let's not complicate it all further.
my brother is now married, an addition to the family.
i still don't quite know how to react, the weekend was a whirlwind of parties, drinking, smiles and many people.
i feel even more insignificant in his life.
monash is taking awhile to respond, that makes me feel terribly anxious.
if they don't take me in, i'm not sure where i'd go to finish this up.
the end of the year is about 3 weeks away, i think we've all been overwhelmed by the wedding to be excited about Christmas and New Year's. doesn't look like anything's about to happen.
i've made plans for 3 getaways. now to make money to fund those trips, sigh.
Lykke Li said it, we've got to get some.
7.11.10
5.11.10
off the edge
what a hiatus. with many in betweens, lost nights, torn days.
i called it off, with reasons and excuses. i don't know if i am better without you. but i do know i see a complete stranger when i look in the mirror every morning.
it's silly to say i don't know what i'm doing, but truly i don't know what this does to me in the long run. but enough words, they say too much too much.
i don't deserve this. or you, being here with me.
i called it off, with reasons and excuses. i don't know if i am better without you. but i do know i see a complete stranger when i look in the mirror every morning.
it's silly to say i don't know what i'm doing, but truly i don't know what this does to me in the long run. but enough words, they say too much too much.
i don't deserve this. or you, being here with me.
11.8.10
8.8.10
4.8.10
extensions
when it all comes in at once, i'm not very good at making the final decision.
i guess it's one of those times when you get the chance to make a big deal out of it, you go for it. that was yesterday.
i had 12 hours to make a decision.
to work with a niche industry, one that i knew absolutely nothing about, one that would provide an opportunity to climb up the corporate ladder or to intern with an established advertising firm. on top of that i also had to answer to other appointments that were scheduled for later this week.
i still don't know if i made the right choice. but i made one and i'm sticking to it.
it doesn't come by very often, loopholes like these. surely it's a change of times. it also does seem that i have further panned out my stay in this country. not exactly what i had in mind.
c'est la vie.
i guess it's one of those times when you get the chance to make a big deal out of it, you go for it. that was yesterday.
i had 12 hours to make a decision.
to work with a niche industry, one that i knew absolutely nothing about, one that would provide an opportunity to climb up the corporate ladder or to intern with an established advertising firm. on top of that i also had to answer to other appointments that were scheduled for later this week.
i still don't know if i made the right choice. but i made one and i'm sticking to it.
it doesn't come by very often, loopholes like these. surely it's a change of times. it also does seem that i have further panned out my stay in this country. not exactly what i had in mind.
c'est la vie.
3.8.10
Money!
as a young adult, money is constantly a problem. i dislike asking my parents for money as i feel that i am fully capable of supporting myself. or at least able to pay my own bills. i'm thankful for having my own mode of transportation as it is reliable and i can go to work without worrying about being late or traffic jams.
i've been scouring the internet for months, looking for a job that would fit my bill. to date, i'm successful in searching for a position and am going for two interviews in the next 3 days!
just a few links i'd like to share with you (:
PartTimePost
http://www.facebook.com/parttimepost
PartTimePost offers a variety of jobs, ranging from part-time, full-time and even freelance ads. It is also helpful that the site is catered to those amongst us who wish to go the extra mile for some extra cash!
Job Enlistments
http://forum.lowyat.net/JobEnlistments
For those here who wish to find a job in the Klang Valley, job listings in this forum is aplenty and you are bound to catch an ad that suits you. Also the offers at this site caters to the IT savvy and many fresh grads who are looking to make some moolah whilst gaining invaluable experience!
AsiaPartTime
http://asiaparttime.com/
This is a site i visit regularly, the jobs are endless and there are new postings everyday. you'd never run out of options, just probably out of time because you can't decide which job offer to take!
Happy Job Hunting! (:
i've been scouring the internet for months, looking for a job that would fit my bill. to date, i'm successful in searching for a position and am going for two interviews in the next 3 days!
just a few links i'd like to share with you (:
PartTimePost
http://www.facebook.com/parttimepost
PartTimePost offers a variety of jobs, ranging from part-time, full-time and even freelance ads. It is also helpful that the site is catered to those amongst us who wish to go the extra mile for some extra cash!
Job Enlistments
http://forum.lowyat.net/JobEnlistments
For those here who wish to find a job in the Klang Valley, job listings in this forum is aplenty and you are bound to catch an ad that suits you. Also the offers at this site caters to the IT savvy and many fresh grads who are looking to make some moolah whilst gaining invaluable experience!
AsiaPartTime
http://asiaparttime.com/
This is a site i visit regularly, the jobs are endless and there are new postings everyday. you'd never run out of options, just probably out of time because you can't decide which job offer to take!
Happy Job Hunting! (:
23.7.10
21.7.10
Wantan in a bowl!
try this, (this is not an advert) CP Shrimp Wonton!
It's quite honestly the best wan tan (as spelled in malaysia) i've ever had. Wan tan that came out of a prepacked meal, ready to go in 3 minutes after microwaved. complete with the kind of piping hot ajinomoto soup that i like (:
can you say succulent?
it's safe to say i'd never trust wantans in plastic bowls and plastic wrap. but i had to give it a go since it came from Thailand (known to have the biggest prawns on the East Coast)
Plus also the fact that Winston did not have a microwave oven at his place. I've got 5 bowls left in the freezer! *glee!* Coupled with the fact that I am having it at 2am, and that i do not have to share it with Fatty (who is asleep at the moment), it is bliss :D
The only downside is, i don't know where to buy em once stock runs out!
20.7.10
NEW!
ra-ra vroom!
it's quite a revamp if i may say so myself
to many new unboring posts about something more than our 2 cents.
it's quite a revamp if i may say so myself
to many new unboring posts about something more than our 2 cents.
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