it works.

the boyfriend seriously makes me feel smarter.
not because he's stupid, but because of our conversations.
sometimes i feel like i'm rambling on about complete rubbish but he gets what i'm saying.
nothing can ever be the same again. wtf it's an overused line, sue me.

so i don't like taking taxis alone. heck i just don't like using public transport alone.
it's creepy, having some guy standing in a corner of the monorail/lrt/bus, giving me the creeps, the evil eye, whatever sleazy grin and i just get the chills.
but i took a cab to the boyfriend's place today, it's about a 10 to 15 minutes drive

as soon as i sat in the passenger seat of the cab, the taxi driver looks over and sees that i'm holding a McDonald's cup, "ada satu je ke?" i laugh nervously, "sorry ya bang, next time i belikan satu lagi..." and the conversation flowed, i don't like driving, petrol prices, the government and their subsidies, petrol prices in other countries, cab prices in other countries, why don't i live in other countries wtf, and he's only been a cab driver for 2 and a half months with 5 kids to feed, been jobless for 4 years, omg i might just kill myself if i couldn't feed myself. but he's a nice guy who doesn't know the area quite well, so a detour + a good conversation + a little faith in mankind = 7 bucks. it's worth it knowing that some cabbies aren't fucking cutthroat sharks who rip you off and they actually know what they are talking about. looks a bit scary, but then again, give people a chance.

we talk about things others may not even understand
and a mutual friend gave him advice
"she's a smart girl, intelligent, but watch out. she could make you or break you."
i'm grateful for his honesty, and perhaps i don't see it that way
i know my capabilities.
it is possible.
but at this point, i care about him too much to think of how to break him.

it's also hilarious that this is the one relationship that i truly am grateful and even the things that come our way, i.e. my subconscious flirting with our friends
i swear, it's seriously something i can't control
but his understanding of it is something i can't appreciate more received
'hahahha, you can see but you can't touch. she's mine!" +_+
mahai, za dou okay.

it's just like that.