and my heart comes a-tumbling down

i wonder how’d it sound like if your heart broke as if it were made of glass

i haven’t had the guts to listen to “light years away” by mozella
mainly because 8 months ago i’d crumble the moment the first chords strike my ears
i tried giving it a shot now and then
but i’d be clamming up on the inside, like a little girl afraid to open her eyes in the dark because of the monsters who live under her bed.

you probably don’t even understand what i’m even talking about.
i absolutely adore this song, don’t get me wrong.
in fact my ex-boyfriend had introduced it to me
and i fell head over heels for him and the song instantly.
boy, little did i know how much it would cost me
one song, one singer.

i recall asking a friend recently
“how is it possible that she can write such heart-wrenching lyrics?”
this is in reference to mozella and all other break up songwriters.
to imagine what it would be like to be in their shoes
what else could they use as inspiration for their melancholic songs
but experience in a field called “love”

i’m no expert
in fact, one true experience has left me, shall we say, jaded?
yes i’m in no place to be jaded with the best feeling in the world
but won’t you agree if i said it’s also one of the worst things to feel, especially if you can’t do anything about it?

i’m naturally an emo person, so don’t mind me.
to be frank, i’m quite touchy still about the past
and although talking about it helps to air pent-up feelings
i am inclined to just stick to blogging about it

i think it hurts much more when it’s spoken