leaving you/me behind

i’ve decided.
i am letting it go.
not that i ever had a part in that.
i never did.

but i think it signifies my end in this story.
heck you don’t know what i’m talking about.
but at least i do.

perhaps we’ll have another shot at this
who knows eh?
(:

i might just wait. i think you’re worth it.
or maybe it was just infatuation. (:
i miss you. i really do.
i miss your arm around my waist.
your fingers entwined in mine.
i miss your company.
your patience.
your ignorance.
fuck.

this is damn bleeding emo.
sigh.
you get the drift la
i don’t need to go detailed here.

damn sayang.
every meaning it has, it applies.

on another note, i hope u bimbos had an awesome time in london.
dang it, i’ll make it the next time (:
i cut my hair and dyed it again.
27th january. it’s supposed to be purple-reddish.
it turned out to be a lot like black red. +_+
there’s a hundred down the drain.

can i rave about club 8 and pelle again?
absolutely loved them.
it’s practically impossible to say one bad thing
well maybe the technical error with the bass was quite a potong-steamer.

and i might just make it for switchfoot.
i’ll try my bestest for explosions in the sky.
and maroon 5, you gotta wait for me!
(:
ambitious me.
that’s 4 concerts in like 3 months +_+
well God, i’m hoping for some extras in the bank, a toothfairy even, just let me keep my bites.
or you can get me an early birthday present (:
hahahahha

ooh wait make that FIVE, there’s this gig lined up at mont kiara.
just heard about it today, sunburst!
featuring john legend, incubus and a bunch more.
all day long apparently, 200 bucks!
shit, i tak payah makan or shop for the next two years +_+

frisbee tmw.
i am so not fit. +_+

babi headache.
stupid double weather.

*mwah!

pms makes me yell at people

it’s true.
and i think there are a lot of people around me who have probably witnessed or experienced this at one time or another.
i’m saying this because i feel extremely guilty for yelling at my dad for all the things that happened today.
sorry pops.
i couldn’t make it to frisbee because i kinda woke up late but i was dressed and ready to go and then i realized that i only know the way to astaka, or at least in theory i sorta know where it is and where to head or who to call.
but in reality i am supposed to be making my way to kbu which i’ve only seen twice in my whole life and for me to get there before 9am when’s it’s already 8.30am as i left my house would be impossible unless i grew wings during the car ride.
even then it would be highly unlikely that i’d know how to use my new wings, which i don’t have, of course.

+_+

this is what having your period does to you.
it’s like it’s not good enough that you have to bleed, and that you get pissy, apparently you can also go a little whacked like what i am now. +_+

but the highlight of this post is that i had an excellent day yesterday. a little screwed up but excellent.
almost good enough to think about writing about.
i’m kidding!
i had like minimal sleep because of a current kinda slow addiction to grey’s anatomy of which i plan to get the rest of the seasons because it so happens that what i have of it now is something i already kinda watched on national tv but wasn’t really interested at that time. since i’m about to go bonkers anyways, why not go wild with a tv drama that is honestly so amazingly complicated i don’t even know half of what’s happened or what’s going to happen…

anyways back to the minimal sleep.
i had to wake up early anyways to go all the way to college to pay the fees +_+
and why couldn’t someone else do that for me?
because apparently i’m the only person who knows how to do it
+_+
nevermind that.
so i spent close to two hours mindlessly in some computer lab
until *T tells me class is over and lunch would be fantastic.
i don’t eat but i had a rather laughable time what with more real-life drama about some weird sexuality issues
o.O
whatever.
so now that i have the company, *T and i head over to midv to get the last of my pay and walk around aimlessly.
i’ve missed her though, strangely.
i think it’s established that we should have our mondays together.
i don’t know what will come of that, but i might put more effort in this than with the rest of the people i know.

so it was midvalley mindless wandering and meandering, with more complicated relationship issues happening..
what is it with kids these days? tsk tsk…

and then we, *S, *D, *I and yours truly headed back to *S’s hostel to just… sit around :p
after that it was time to get back and be all ready for an awesome night!
you do know i got tickets for club 8 and pelle carlberg at KLPac right????
@_@
well i did.
*P came over to pick me up and after some real quick mcd’s, we TRIED to find sentul, jalan ipoh, and wherever it is that we can relate to getting to sentul west. +_+
needless to say it was more like an adventure getting there, and it shows that i should go there more often!
thanks *J and *A for the directions!
and i feel so bad making *F wait for us cause all the tickets were with me!
we eventually arrived, and i don’t think a lot of people were bothered by whichever band who was opening for club 8.
to be absolutely honest, i only heard like 6 songs from this duo before i went for the gig.
but it’s a genre that i’m glad to be comfortable with.
why settle for what’s normal, what’s popular, what’s new, what’s usual when there’s good music from independent bands as well??

i am digressing yet again.

i had the best time i could possibly have in a room full of people, a band that’s amazing, a guy who’s charismatic on stage, friends who enjoyed it as well, drunk people dancing and stepping on my feet, drunk OLD people who dance like they are 15, some enthusiastic people, some unenthusiastic people, awesome music, technical errors, and all that made my night one to remember for this week. (:
it was, one word, fan-bleeding-tastic. (:

and i didn’t drink at all.
(:
maybe because there was an unopened bottle of J.D at home waiting for me. (:
kidding. i didn’t drink. maybe next week.
i am still upset about not being able to make it to frisbee but who cares?
i had a great night, didn’t really meet anyone but at least i know now that i can have a kinda okay time being alone.
indie music, indie me. get it?

i might go for switchfoot next week if there’s a ticket.
life is just getting started.
i am looking forward, can you tell?

(:

unbelievable

really.
it’s so wtfwth that i don’t even know how to react anymore.
how is that singapore gets all the good stuff and we get the shit?
i am tu lan, can you tell?

i’ll emo more later la….

*later…. *
i swear man, why?
why this year?
why when i am broke?
+_+
i believe i have previously ranted about this
but kt tunstall is just like another pain in the neck.
would some people be incredibly sweet and generous so that i can be happy in singapore this march? (:
i don’t think i can even make it for club8 and pelle this friday =/

i’m going to sulk the whole of tmw.

crashed and burned. well..almost!

on a hospital bed, with bandages around my abdomen and ouch it hurts to even type.
i hate hospitals.
they stink of detergent or bleach, whichever the nastier.
how to play frisbee now?
worst case scenario. i think i’d rather keel over than be in a hospital.

but fortunately i’m still in one piece, but i shld have thought of being less swollen headed before i said that ehhh??? +_+ sigh.
i’m good

i swear man, i was sooooo damn close to freaking out.
i would never ever everrrr forget the 21st of January 2008, 7.40 something in the morning, the left turning to jalan dungun.
if this is wat you meant by trading, God, you damn keng la.
the other dude was totally glaring daggers at me, ma hai. you think i really wanted to kiss your bumper that bad meh??
thank God no one else was around, i was a bowl of jelly, literally!
i think i just sat in all my classes with my mind floating somewhere out there.
but i’m really lucky i was talking to this guy, and he was saying something about calling the insurance, and the police and the yadayadayada… j-man said to just call someone more matured. HAHAHHAHAH
well thank goodness my brother and uncle weren’t pissed.
i think my uncle has like had 5 accidents in the past 6 months?
well… i guess this is just the norm for him already.

oh and this is why i hate HELP students.
*i don’t care if i take this back later on, if i don’t, i guess it proves my point*
this fucker just stood there and laughed.
bastard, i’d like to be at the scene when he crashes man.
macam puki, i don’t even know you +_+
but takpe, we let malicious people be malicious.
i am just gonna take a break from the wheel for now.

now how am i going to get around? =/

i hate you

how you pretend to care but you just can’t give two fucks
how you really take things for granted
how you can hurt me just by saying something
how your bloody words can seriously make me bleed
how your girlfriend is such a bitch, i can’t stand her
how you think you are holier-than-thou
how you think you are so much better than everyone of us
how you give stupid meaningless fucked up sermons like you can save the world
how you are such a pain in the ass
how i didn’t even think about calling you when i am in a crisis because if i did, you won’t be able to help me and you won’t anyways.
how our parents can still bear with your shithead attitude
how i have to resort to blogging about how much i hate you
how i need to wait this out before i get to leave and bade adieu to your shit
how you don’t care about anything but your church, girlfriend, job and bike.
how i’ll never tell this to your face, because….. i’m afraid.

kiss kiss

does chris brown rock or wat?
i had a good time on friday, not too much drinking, just wayy too much dancing =)
sadly this weekend is void of practically anything to do +_+
wtf
i am so f-ing bored.
i shit you not.
anyone i want to see in person on msn, is abroad.
anyone i want to see who’s actually in this country is either sick, busy or smth la.
+_+
damn pissing off i swear.
i have a totally free weekend with no plans whatsoever and there’s nothing happening??
yeah i know, i can’t believe it either.

you know how everyone is raving about j.co donuts?
well i think big apple’s donuts rocks more than j.co’s :p
and i love “Witnut” oh damn, it’s absolutely scrumptious!
and it’s uber-pretty too!
a layer of vanilla cream on top of a fresh donut, some choc pattern
and a yummylicious peanut butter filling!
it’s almost to die for

hey bryan, i think ur really cute!
*hides flaming face*

treading ice.

i feel a lot better now.
tuesday saw a lot of unnecessary wasting time on public transportation, a few new faces, some obnoxious idiots whose names i don’t even know, high school freshies who are so high school musical i want to keel over, but i did learn some geography and cultural ways different from my own.
i couldn’t be screwed to go get books on wed, and thus i am text-bookless for next week!
sigh.
i actually drove to college yesterday, nearly colliding with 4 other vehicles. a celica, a perdana, a kancil, a lorry.
yeah i am quite the pro hahahha
i also missed the turning to the national museum, thank goodness i eventually found my way there.
but with a four-hour break, i could have gone home to sleep and eat and bathe and drive back for english.
so i went yam char with *UW and found my way to college.
i spent like 15 bucks on parking alone can you believe it?
no hot sightings as usual.
sien.

here’s something new, a new year’s kiss. i know it’s not so new a year anymore.
but it did feel sorta odd/natural/unexpected.
what the hell am i saying!?
nothing will come of it anyways.
just thought i’d write it here in case i forgot.

American Idol 7 is so bleeding funny!
but i do feel kesian for the contestants who audition.
it’s so sad, being made fun of on tv, and there’s the whole world watching!
not just US!
i guess this means i won’t be trying out for “one in a million” now.
hahahahhahahhaahhaha
i’m kidding man!