happy early 20th to meeee!

yeah i know it’s damn perasan of me.suka hati lah! i had a good time, i really did (:

a day out with peanuts and a joint surprise birthday party with shoaib cause his is on the 23rd and mine’s 4 days later. it’s only logical that we would be “surprised” together! some pretty interesting presents, cheers to that!

damn, i have some good mates (: it’s not like i didn’t know about it, cause you can’t hide anything from me okay!

to the lovely people who made the time to plan, compromise, surprise, pay, cake-smearers, photographers, musicians, hippies, new friends, old friends, gifts, drinks, food, the lot!

i’m incredibly thankful you guys actually took the time to do this (: it means a lot, truly! sigh. when i am rich and kinda famous, i won’t forget you!

exams super potong, cause now i gotta wait for like two weeks or more to really go all out, nyahahahhaa (:

thanks once again! (: photos on facebook! please,not the one of my cakeface!

*mwah!

woot.

drinks bond people

i think that's very true

was at a gig last night.
i bumped into Uthzz! it's been too long, darling!
and i am such a stalker la, i saw not one, but two! photographers. hehehe cute ones
sigh. this is why i shouldn't be allowed online after roaming the streets (:
the keyboardist of Witherspoon is honestly smokin' hawt ;)
and the shy one in me had the opportunity to say hi, thanks to Uthzz!
i gotta tell you, i totally dig musicians *sexy time*

had a malibu rum *yummy!* we also had a butch-ey kinda waitress who took our orders and whatnot, and i honestly felt a super gay vibe from her. i asked the design boy and he couldn't disagree. what is it with me and my luck of meeting people who are either downright lousy, or gay!?!? why, i don't deserve someone who's amazing is it? i'm kidding, perhaps i'm friends with all the awesome people, it'd be weird if we hooked up.

i was also thinking, i did bump into familiar faces, but we know we aren't going to acknowledge the other's existence. i don't know why we do this, but you know what? i am going to say hi the next time around. just for fun (: strike a chord, leave a trail...

it was a night not wasted and i had fun which is always good, but we left early cause i hate thursdays! super duper long days. i am never ever having a four hour break in between classes again.
it was a virgin mistake, period.

anyhoo, i like times like that. make your ass comfortable, get a bottle, a few glasses, a pack of cigarettes or two, turn up the stereo, make sure the funniest, loudest, unabashed people are present and that's my idea of an awesome night (: heck, i can do that every weekend.

not happy at the mo, wtf is wrong with YOU. would it be so damn hard on your ego to fucking text me back. i am not going. you can't make me. no point in being nice.



cheers to beers! *mwah!

p/s: i got an early birthday card from juenee! thank you so much my dear friend! (:

these boots are made for walking.

yeah peeptoeheels.

either that or flipflops.
i can't stand half arsed heels, wedges offer no comfort/stability, i don't like em strapped heels either, or would i ever go for sneakers cause my toes are weird. they hurt when i wear sneakers.

but enough with what i slide my feet into.
i hope this remains anonymous. i want to bitch and not be stabbed in the back about it.
also, this is a way to procrastinate. i have too many assignments due this week. and there are two days left in this week. oh i am a barrel of laughs. there are also a ton of places to be, faces to meet, money to be spent, movies to watch, and of course people to bitch about.

can i wait til the next post? no, not really.
it could come up in the next half hour.
but i sure hope not. essays to do!!!!

i'll leave you with a bit of me : i am a Gunner's girl.

sugar-coated

why do you have to be so damn sweet.
@_@

well i miss him. for what it’s worth.

wtf.

don’t ask me why..
i don’t fucking know.
i don’t have a clue.
i come back at midnight like cinderella sneaks back into her castle or tower.
i don’t leave any clues behind like my glass slipper but he certainly knows how i look like now since he took photos of me. i was willing. no, this isn’t even about him. as cute as he may be. i will blog about him when i feel better. but now i don’t feel like i’m going to feel better. i feel like shit. maybe worse than shit. but then i don’t fucking know how shit feels like, maybe this is one level worse than shit. what the fuck am i rambling on about i have no fucking idea. except that i feel like having a cigarette. yes i finally typed it out right here. yes i am smoking. yes it is detrimental to my health but i still do it. we all do something of the sort so stop looking at me and keeping me on the guilt trip cause you do the fucking same bad shit to yourself except that it may be drinking, gambling, lying, fucking or whatever it is. i don’t give two fucks about that right now. well i also feel like having a drink. maybe i’ll go make myself a drink later because i haven’t had a shot in two weeks and more. and i was supposed to get sloshed last night but i respect the people there, it’s not my bleeding party and i don’t get the right to steal the limelight. in any case i am completely fucked this week. i’ve got a shitload of work that i have procrastinated til this very second where i am blogging to release all this pent up shit that i have up to my skinny neck. yeah i have so much shit to do. and i wish she’d stop burping/farting/releasing air. cause it pisses me off. or at least do it so that i can’t hear it. but i can’t tell her to stop. and i wish to God that i did my chores so that i won’t have this shit on my conscience. even if everything happens for a reason. i feel like this is my shit and now i have to fucking deal with it and i don’t know how to. and i have that many friends but none would understand what the fuck am i going through now. why the hell do i have to deal with this? what did i do? or not do? it can’t be the bloody chores. omg why can’t i just get a smoke now. and i hate her. i hate her for being so fucking pilih kasih. i hate him for talking about my brat of a cousin all the fucking time like he’s all there is to this world. fuck that shit. and he makes all sorts of funny noises and asks the same fucking questions all the time i just want to tell them all to shut the fuck up cause i don’t want to listen to whatever they have to say cause it’s not important. cause it doesn’t make a difference in MY world even though they live in it. and now…….

i just want to hug you and make all this go far far away.

So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
-maroon 5, goodnight goodnight-

taggy-ti-tag-tag

damn the malas to do this, one of a few +_+
but i shall procrastinate

Instructions: Remove one question from below, add in one of your own (personal), to make a total of 20. Tag 10 people in your list in the end of this post. Notify them.

1. At what age do you wish to be married?
um, 21…? gosh that’s next year!!! no way jose. er when i’m ready la. which is very likely to be never. (:

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you’d take and why?
it’s hard to say… i’d bring jojoe cause we can bitch and smoke and he is my male counterpart, lipengjman as they come in a buy one free one package and they can double up as laughing gas and can drink til we knock out, and lastly i’d bring jay cause there’ll be good conversations and i’d need good music so i’ll jump on the ipod bandwagon (:

3. Where is the place that you want to go to the most?
right now, it’s gotta be the beach!

4. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are another 3 blog buddies you’d take and why?
wtf, where can repeat question wan. cheating! um, akmal cause that’s the way we roll yo, more like can naik gila together-gether, jean so that i can argue with someone, and i’d bring grace cause she’s the sensible one. lols

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
hell no

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my eyesight.

7. If you win $1 Million, what would you do?
blow it all on drinks (: and maybe some on other vices. derma to AIDS charities too la.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
nah, i’d prolly fall out of love the next day.

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
funny, dependable, full of shit. HEY THAT’S GOOD k

10. What requirement do you wish from your other half?
hmm, i dig musicians. someone who can play the sax (:

11. What kind of person do you hate the most?
people who take others for granted.

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
yeah, i’d do the damn adp programme then and be across the world by now.

13. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. What does it mean to you?
it means what it means la. but i believe no one can give u unconditional love except for God.

14. If you had a pet orang utan, what would you call him? And why?
i don’t want one, tqvm.

15. If there’s ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place, or fight?
it depends on what’s the cause of the war, if it’s for equality among the citizens of the country, freedom of speech etc then hell yeah. but if it’s for stupid shit like global warming, forget it. we can’t do no shit to fix that okay. give up already.

16. If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
my temper.

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
um, actually no one.

18. What’s your weakest point?
being too laid back

19. What’s your favorite drink and why?
chivas, cause it’s fucking nice, that’s why! hahahha

20. Would you rather drown or be burnt alive?
i’d prolly drown, cause i can’t swim properly. besides, you won’t be able to recognize me if i went up in flames.

i tag : anyone la. sien. +_+

and again.

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What is your favourite food?
um i like chocolate (:

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yeah. boring question.

3. what’s on your playlist now?
Universe and U by KT Tunstall

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
the beach. NOW.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
i want to be happy.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
well i’ll believe it if i see it.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my dignity.

8. If you win RM1 million, what would you do?
get more drinks. pay for my own education. buy hermes birkin, skip the damn 3 year waiting list. (:

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
malas lah.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she listens to my shit, keeps my secrets secret, and she’s cool!

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
i told you, i dig the sex, i mean the sax! (:

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
people who take others for granted.

13. What is your ambition?
to be able to have a job that allows me to have fun and make money (:
in other words, i’d like to be part of events, huge gigs, throw parties, you get my drift.

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
tell me but don’t be a mega bitch about it.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my family.and friends.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
nope.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
cool.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
temperrrrrr. which i might just lose cause i am repeating two tags +_+

19. What makes you different?
i make me different.

20. If you can be any fictional character from any anime, drama or movie, who would it be? why?
why can’t it be me?

People who I wanna tag: you who’s reading this. (: