two-timing

they came right in for me.
i did nothing to stop them.
no, i didn't.
oh i didn't want to, i didn't mean to, i didn't...
it happened anyway.

what now?
what will happen now?
should i lie? should i pretend it didn't happen?
would i be able to wash my hands clean of that?

even if you could get over it, my conscience wouldn't let me go.

i get scared, terrified even, when i know we are just the same
no way, i don't exist as a man, i exist as i am
but you proved it all wrong.
that itself is so exhilarating, satisfying
there is definitely a male version of me
i've found what i've been looking for
how many of us can say we've met our match in this life?
i have, and it's been one exciting ride.
i wouldn't exchange this for the fucking world.
all the mistakes, all the right moves
damn right, this is the shit everyone begs for.
everyone else just pales in friggin comparison, it's pathetic.

baby, it's all been a game. just a mind game.
it's like being on fire. all i ever searched for was the fire and who started it.