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hiatus from blogging.
not intentional.
just that there’s just been so much going on.
way too much for me to handle, even.
good things, bad things.
repetition.

had some big fights.
had some make up talks.
in the midst of mending broken bridges.
time time time.
compress time your head la.
no matter what, we never have enough time.
i know i don’t.

i’m done having little crushes all over the place.
(:
it’s hard to keep track, let alone update people on what’s going on.
i shall be matured and wise in choosing the next person.
it will be a person with brains, please and thank you very much.
this is the consequences of being around people who don’t use their brains very often.
therefore, i need someone with half a brain at least.
+_+

btw, *S mentioned that i have an image of someone who’s too cool to admit she’s stupid.
+_+
i was quite the wtf when i heard it.
but then, who gives a shit what kind of “image” i have, as long as i’m no ho
i’d like to think i’m someone who isn’t a complete dunderhead.
being blur doesn’t count!
+_+

sometimes i wonder what the heck am i babbling on about.
doesn’t make sense to me =/

dramatic, is how i’d describe the last two weeks.
with the harsh words exchanged, with me walking away, with people walking away from me
with drunken nights and chimney heads.
knowing me, i’ll probably miss out on some stuff that was important.

dang, this is the consequences of facebooking and mengabaikan this space.
sometimes i think the title’s kinda cornish.
but it’s what i mean, to you, to people who were in and out of my life.
similar to temporary hinges, holding me up for a while before making way for other hinges to lend some sway

i will definitely need more than a few hinges to take the place of the one leaving.
hey darling, i’m missing you already ):

and i am complicating things on my own.
i am damn bloody smart i know. +_+
let sleeping dogs lie, they say.
i just feel like i should make things right while i can, i.e. with *L *case yang paling menyakitkan hati*
but it seems so futile when you tepuk sebelah tangan
mana la ada bunyi
i don’t blame him, we have separate lives
but i can’t help but feel hurt when at one point we were as thick as thieves
and now…. there’s nothing left to salvage.
i suppose it takes time and i don’t want to rush into anything.
to a certain extent, i want what we once had.
sigh.
it’s hard to let go, even after all this time.

i had an okay v day.
no expectations.
and i had a little surprise.
damn, now i can’t get him out of my mind.
he’s so *arghhhfdfohjnvorgjN* annoying!
but….. *blushes furiously*

heck i ain’t gonna admit it here!
paham-paham la this is masalah negara..
weekends spent in such disorder
weekdays wasted on sleeping in the sun
i am honestly not taking my studies seriously at all.
in fact the only thing i am taking with a straight face is, chores.

*A came back perth-land and i didn’t get to see him
i am disappointed cause *YN got to bum with him
+_+
can you spell “unfair”?

oh fuck it’s twelve thirty already!
nights lovelies