A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me want to run till' I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same
I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same
So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play
We should've had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change
I, oh I, I wish this could last forever
I, oh I, As if we could last forever
Love remains the same
Love remains the same


oh so much to say
there's just no space to spill
do or die.
what ache is this
can you tell what my mind speaks?
and would you do anything to fix this?
no, i'm telling you, there is nothing you or I could do.

goober

gosh facebook stinks of too much self-love in all those photos!
can you believe some people actually have like 900++ shots @_@
no comment.
slap her face, tak tau malu.
teng tou hoi geh meng tou siong xing hoi liong pa
actually that applies to a LOT of ppl, especially those who tak tau malu
anyways, i wish i was a boy for about a week or so every month
no, i don't want a penis.
no, i don't want to be stupid :P haha kidding!
but i'd just like to skip the PMS, the period and the aftermath.
it's so frustrating. i know i'm being difficult and yet i can't help myself but just to be difficult. damn chowcibai right?

and you know la, the whole cirit-birit thing, it just makes everything worse?
like seriously.
friday night? i'm too cool for parties so i stay home and read about how to gain power +_+
sien dou.
fuck, damn annoying laaaaaaa
wtf am i rambling about

a secret isn't a secret until one of two dies.

i'm alone in this space.
there's nothing in between.
you gave me this solitude, and took everything i had.
and now i'm alone.

fuck you and all your empty promises
i hate the very fact that i allow you to do this to me
fuck you
fuck you
fuck you
fuck you

it's the smallest thing in the world to you and probably a lot more than that to me
so fuck you
what, it's so hard for you to understand the significance behind it?
what, i have got to spell it out for you?
what, i'm making a mountain out of a molehill?
so what? i have every goddamn right to be pissed.
fuck you.
you think NOTHING when it comes to me
and it's so frustrating and yet i can't do anything about it
so fuck you.

DON'T MAKE PROMISES YOU CAN'T FUCKING KEEP.

salivate.

i like the idea of instant noodles in a cup.
having maggi mee perisa kari when you get a B-minus on a quiz you thought you aced, when your favourite show has its finale and you're sad to see them go, when it's cold as ice outside and you're snuggled in between a good book/movie on your couch, slurping away at all that spicy goodness...
that's heaven in a yellow cup.

freakshow.

i like not wearing underwear, it's airy and the feeling of unstuffed, unsqueezed bits of your body into itsy-bitsy triangular shapes of cotton is one that can't be described without going through it yourself (:

ah quit playing games with my heart! you say it just to annoy me, just to whisk a reaction out of me. or you do it unintentionally but it's still fucking mencibaikan! JUST STOP IT!

and an unlikely trio spent 20 minutes bugging shaarad about how it's a waste of a friday morning to be stuck in a class full of people who just won't cooperate. i can imagine how frustrating it is for him, so thank goodness i'm not in his shoes. but seriously, dumbing oneself down just so the rest of you dumbfucks get to pass the class is NOT how i want to spend the rest of my semester.


you can call me whatever you like, only because it makes you feel better about your sorry self.
pathetic.

come away with me, let's reminisce about the days in the sun
and you can wipe my smeared eyeliner on the train
but til then, just drop the ball and leave the field
i'm just waiting at the edge of time for you.

ponder away

"The fact is, if he wants you, and I mean want-you-so-badly-it-hurts, there are no mixed messages. He will move heaven and earth to be with you. If he's not in to you, the only thing he'll move is his thumb: 'want 2 come over 2nite?'
Need I say more?"

go figure.

i am Desire, just like the breeze on the sea, the wind in your hair
sink this in, soak it up
do i taste of someone you used to kiss?

do you Dream, like i do?

what path did Destiny set you off to?

grasp Death by her hand and take that walk with her, its less lonely when you have someone to guide you.

walls of darkness, spiraling into an abyss, that's my Despair

you didn't know it was possible to change from delight to Delirium, in an instant? what was your turning point?

Destruction is when you set yourself on fire.

pysch

the things alcohol does to a person, let's not even go into that.
where's that dark place i go to?
it's just an immediate reaction, *snap* we're here.
you should feel better, it's a lift like nothing else
when you're sky high and elevated and the whole "let's just party our brains out tonight" mood comes on, it'll just turn into a dark abyss of complete nothingness and let's swirl and twirl those dancing shoes, tip that glass over, smile your frustrations away.
oh the remedy of many many spirits, just a tinkle for tonight.

i imagine the voice in my head to take the image of a tiny little fella, dwarf-like, shouting everything and anything that makes me want to choke myself. i go haywire when he starts talking. oh fuck. can you please just shut the fuck up because you're driving me insane, i'm upside down inside out, stretched in all ways, and all you can do about it is to rile me up even more? you know what you do to silence that voice? take a brick and throw at it. trust me, he gets good at ducking after awhile, so you just have train to aim.

i'm all out there, and everywhere. you can see me in that man across the room, i'm the student on the train, the song that you sing when you're in the shower, you can feel me in the strangest of places, when you're having McD's at the mall, when you drink coffee and smoke that cigarette.
you just have to learn how to look out for me, the same way that i'm looking out for you.
those little signs of life that radiate.

ciao bella

you're leaving on a jetplane
):

ah, it's been good having you.
do you remember how we met?
i miss those late night conversations
i like your room, and the bed big enough for 3
your cd collection that amazes me
you're my music library
how you like walking in thunderstorms/rain
i can't think of anyone else who would stay up til i'm asleep, that 'adventurous' night

i think i lost that photograph we took in mcdonald's petaling street so many years ago
when we first met face-to-face for the first time! ah malunya! :P
i was in my prefect uniform! hahahaha

i remember certain V days because of you
2 roses! and a coffee (:
we fought, over what, for the life of me, i now can't recall
but i'm glad we made up

we had our differences, i'm glad for everything that happened, and then some.

excuse me miss?

word.

i steal these things

# Asking a girl on Friday for a date on Saturday is completely unacceptable. Keyword: Planning
# Shave every day. One day's growth of facial hair is worse than a girl not shaving her legs for a week.
# We don't shave our legs every day, get over it.
# Ask for directions.
# If you said you are going to be somewhere at a certain time, then do it. Don't expect us to wait around.
# Your way is not always the right way. Learn to say- "I was wrong, sorry."
# Is it that hard to make it up to a girl by saying "Sorry, honey, I don't want to fight, you know I do love you"?
# If you say you are going to do something, then just do it. Don't tell us you will and then sit around thinking of creative excuses why you couldn't get to it.
# You have to tell a girl how you feel about her.
# Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press.
# Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere.
# Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or after sex doesn't count.
# A man I love plans the occasional fancy-shmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
# I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
# I need to hear how you feel about me. OFTEN. Tell me now.
# Surprises, especially gifts for ME = MORE LOVING.
# I want to be the best thing that's ever hapened to you. And for you to recognize this.
# I like it when you tell me what you're thinking even if you don't know yourself.
# Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
# It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
# The "little things" in a relationship are really the biggest.
# Make fun of our clothes...prepare to die.
# We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends.
# Manners are sexy. Opening doors, table manners...the whole nine yards...*meow*

how do you tell the love of your life that it's the smile he has on his face when he sees you, all you look forward to? (at the risk of sounding like a mega cheeser)

ah words aren't enough.

deep blue sea

do i, like death, suck the life out of you?
what is it that i do, that makes me feel like i can't say anything right?
isn't spontaneity a trait that is much-valued by you?
i feel that, of late, i say far too many things that make you cringe.
it's sad, of course. but not something that i can do anything about.
i resolve, to never be soft at heart. but that would mean i will care less.

it hurts. it stings to the core. i can hardly bear to replay those words, i've heard them twice or thrice now, ah here it comes - "smother".
no, of course it's no one's fault. yes we all have our own troubles. definitely, not something intended to insult. what? please don't take it the wrong way.
see, i'm left with the wrong way. i'm not entitled to another "way", so this is the only way i will take, whether i like it or not.

ku memang tak kisah kalau kamu cakap benar dengan saya
tapi saya tidak suka ditipu, lebih-lebih lagi apabila saya tidak menyangsi anda.
apakah susahnya jika anda bercakap terus-terang dengan saya?
terguris hatiku bila nampak gambar gambar yang diambil
adakah persahabatan kita tidak penting lagi bagimu?

anyways, if it is what it is, then so be it la.
i'm just disappointed that's all.
but what's new? they always let you down.
fuck it.